July 23, 2009

the maguro is overfished

They don't serve maguro today, cos they can't. They ran out of it. So, I feasted on salmon sashimi. The company? That which I haven't had as much as I'd like these days, cos her station is in Shanghai for the past year-plus.

There's the personal mirror and the social mirror. Okay, there's a proper term for it, a term which you will find in the notes of my Soci module, Self and Society. But, I can't remember it now. Basically, the idea is, how you see yourself, the changes you see/know within yourself may not be visible to others. The image we construct in our everyday life is interpreted differently by ourselves and by others. Sometimes, that image get stuck and it's just not easy to convince others of a change.

But, I believe you. Perhaps cos you said it enough times, in a consistent manner, to me. Everything is valid, everything is true, probable. But, at the end of the day, no matter what we say, what we think, what we desire, the walk can't be talked.

I may understand a little, I may not even. But it's ok, 'cos there's always so much comfortable space between us for differences. All these years. Knowing someone, perhaps, is not about understanding her completely. It's more about creating a comfortable space for differences to be shared and not to be judged.

It was a sweet sms. One of those kinds you'd not expect to receive from a close friend but that's exactly why it's so sweet.

Thank you huh... for mustering all ur energy to while away an afternoon, talking about things and then, the nothing-ness.

Keep looking out, hearing out for your calling. I'm sure it will come in due time.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:54